As I alluded to in last nights blog and in previous blogs, I still struggle with Trevor's diagnosis and all that comes with that....endless doctors appointments, medications, case managers, therapists, evaluations, etc. There are days that despite the smile, despite the joking, despite it all, I am crying inside...screaming more like it....struggling to keep a grasp on my life as I know it.
This week has been no exception ...seems to be nothing but a series of highs and lows....just when I am flying high emotionally, it all seems to come crashing down...another meltdown....another incident....and I find myself literally trying to scrap myself off the floor in between sobs and wishing that my life was very different.
And then tonight I received a message on Facebook from my friend Kim ....and as I read, the tears streamed down my face....
Kim had found something online today and thought of me - she reminded me that I am an amazing mom and person...something that admittedly, I forget quite often.
So I asked Kim if she would mind if I shared it and she said she didn't it....
HEAVEN'S VERY SPECIAL CHILD
A meeting was held quite far from Earth.
It was time again for another birth.
Said the Angels to the Lord above --
"This special child will need much love.
"His progress may be very slow,
"Accomplishment he may not show.
"And he'll require extra care
"From the folks he meets down there.
"He may not run or laugh or play,
"His thoughts may seem quite far away.
"So many times he will be labeled
"'different,' 'helpless' and disabled.
"So, let's be careful where he's sent.
"We want his life to be content.
"Please, Lord, find the parents who
"Will do a special job for you.
"They will not realize right away
"The leading role they are asked to play.
"But with this child sent from above
"Comes stronger faith, and richer love.
"And soon they'll know the privilege given
"In caring for their gift from heaven.
"Their precious charge, so meek and mild
"Is heaven's very special child."
(I changed the she's to he's, etc.)
Thank you Kim...thank you for being a shoulder to cry on...thank you for being someone who laughs with me too!!! And thank you for helping to remind me of the person I am! I love you!!!