Sunday, May 30, 2010

Trevor meet the gate....gate meet Trevor!!!

It has been a very loooong weekend for us already.

The kids have been at each others throats from the time they get up till the time we put them in bed. I am exhausted - not only physically but mentally. And I think it's safe for me to say Karl is too. Trevor recently has taken to "disciplining" Victoria - which when deciphered means  spanking Victoria. Where he got the idea that he could hit her is beyond me. But it's got to come to a screeching halt! Vicky on the other hand, has gotten to be quite physical with Trevor when he just doesn't roll over and give into her every screaming wish. Sigh! And this too needs to come to a screeching halt. I've had enough! Plain and simple! 

So tonight after supper, Trevor was misbehaving once again....he was told to get upstairs for his shower. But instead he was being lippy and mouthy and told me I was a jerk. And no sooner did those words leave his mouth, when he slipped on the floor and fell and his face met the safety gate between the kitchen and living room. Hence, the "Trevor meet the gate....gate meet Trevor". He's made a mess of his face - right at the corner of his eye, down his face to his lip. I am sure by tomorrow morning he will have quite the black & blue. There was some minimal bleeding...of course, Trevor tends to be a drama king - so he cried and whaled - and went on and on about the blood and needing to call 911 and going to the hospital...all of which weren't necessary.

I felt horrible ....really I did but at the same time it's amazing how this happened just as he had called me, his mother, a jerk. A bit of karma maybe? 

There is a parade here in town tomorrow for Memorial Day....Trevor wants to go but we've told him that all rests on his behavior. And to think he's only got about 5 days of school left.....oh vey....say a prayer for me....

Friday, May 28, 2010

Playtime on the Playground

I've been busy scrapbooking tonight! I was chosen for another creative team this week, so I am having fun playing with new kits! I've been creating for Victoria Feemster for several months now and let me just say that Victoria is totally awesome to work for. Now I get to create for Pampered Princess, who is also at Polka Dot Plum. I am so psyched! Sheena has some absolutely adorable kits in her store. Be sure to check out both designers @ Polka Dot Plum! Here is my first layout using Pampered Princess products:

Playtime on the Playground

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Font - Pea Sara Print

**Edited - because I simply had to add another page I completed!

Victoria - October 2008 - sporting her very first pony tail!

Frolic and Play - Pampered Princess @ Polka Dot Plum -

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Oh what a month!!!

Oh what a month June is going to be! I am looking at my calendar and dry erase board today and wondering how I will survive it all. To give you an idea, take a look at this: 
That my friends is a list of all the appointments/travel coming up in June. Now keep in mind that I do not have on there Trevor's daily support worker appointments. He has someone that comes in 5 days a week, every week. So that would be in addition to all those appointments on that board. I am exhausted just thinking about it.  I am going to Walmart tomorrow and while I am there, I am going to get a big dry erase calendar to hang on the side of the fridge because I need a better system then this small board. I feel like I should go to sleep now and not get up till June 1st just in order to prep myself for it! LOL!! 

Wish me luck!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Makin' Progress!

My dear sweet lil girl is growing up.

Sad but true.

Just yesterday we were curled up breastfeeding - me looking down and watching the contentment wash over her face while she nursed....

....and now today she is going to bed alone, using the potty, taking her meds all by herself.

For about two weeks now, give or take, she's been going to the potty by herself. I had tried several times prior to this but gave up when I realized that she wasn't ready. And from what I am seeing now, waiting pays off. Back to the story - she's been using it on her own for about two weeks now. We have a potty downstairs on the main floor, and when she needs to go, she'll pull her diaper down, go use the potty and then pull her diaper back up and go about her business. Sometimes she stops to tell me she is going, other times she'll tell me after. But all the time she is proud of herself. I haven't been pushing this at all - if she goes great, if not great.

Another thing she's been doing is going to bed alone. I think I've mentioned in the past that I would sit in her room with her while she went to sleep. Two weeks ago she was misbehavin at bed time and I told her if she didn't stop I wasn't going to stay there. She continued to have her tantrum, so I walked out the door, fully expecting to go back into her room when she calmed down. After about 5 minutes she yelled out from her room that she was calm now, lol. I said ok, and told her goodnight. She went to sleep. I was floored! Floored I tell ya! Since then every night I tuck her in, we say our good nights, give our hugs and kisses and exchange our "best friend' line and she goes to bed by herself. Last night she even woke early and normally she would have wanted to come into my room and sleep but I went in and comforted her and she went back to sleep on her own. Now, she still does wake at some point during the night - anywhere between 1am and 5am and I do bring her in here with us, but the very fact that she is going to sleep in her room alone and staying for most the night is a huge thing.

And the other sign of "big girldom" is that she is taking medicine in the form of a pill now. I didn't have any children's liquid allergy med in the house, so the pediatrician said I could cut a regular tablet in half and crush it and put it in her applesauce. Well I decided that I would just try to give it to her and see if she could swallow it down with some water. And she did! And boy was she proud of herself!!! I am proud of her too as I know adults who can't do what she just did at 2.5 yrs old. This morning she took another dose and this time Karl got to see her do it. She gave us high 5's when she was done.

I almost forgot, one night last week she called for me when she was in bed. She said I needed to sit in her room because there was a monster in her closet. Where she ever got that from, I have no idea! I didn't think they started with this stuff at this age, but anyways, back to the I told her mommy was right here, there was nothing in her closet and she would be ok. I reached down to hug her and she giggled and told me she knew there were no monsters! LOL! I think lil stinker was trying to fool me! LOL!

I just can't believe how fast they grow up. I am sad because she is my last baby....never again will I experience all those firsts.....never again....and that my friends, is sad indeed.

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"High Heels" complete with worn off nail polish! :-)


Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Been a while...

My blogging has fallen by the way side and I think it's time to revive it! I've struggled lately in terms of this blog - wondering if my mindless rambling really does any good?! I'd like to think I had something useful to say that might be of help to some other stressed out parent but I just don't know.

The last couple weeks I've just kinda fallen into a rut....I've got a bunch of neglected emails and a bunch of people I promised I'd email and haven't.....and of course, I've been lagging here....I have several knitting projects started that are just waiting for me to pick up and finish....last week I bought a dress pattern for Vicky and some fabric and that too sits on the table just waiting for me to work up the nerve to even try it....there are stacks of papers to be sorted and put away....laundry that has piled up....and I just feel blah....I struggle to get my hair....put on some makeup....and try to make myself presentable.

Truth of the matter is, I've been off my meds. There I said it. It's out in the open. I just causally stopped my meds when Trevor was in the hospital. BIG mistake I know. But I felt good - the stress was greatly reduced and I felt better. But I know better. As someone who has dealt with depression/anxiety for many years, I know that stopping meds on a whim is not ok and yet I did it. And yet for several days now I've thought about taking them again but haven't. I hate taking medications. I watch Trevor take numerous medications....I watch Karl take numerous medications....and I just want to be free of that....I don't want to be bogged down by meds....I can't really explain it was just a stupid move on my part.

I've got so much going on and yet I feel like an outsider looking in.....

I think it's time to start taking care of me.....


Thursday, May 6, 2010

Mamas Rock: A Celebration Contest

Let me start off by saying I am becoming a "actions" junkie. What do I mean by actions?

Here is a good explanation from Helen Bradley:

How often do you find yourself performing the same series of commands in Photoshop? When there are typical tasks that you perform on a regular basis, you have two choices; you can do things the hard way by performing each step every time you need to perform the task, or you can get smart and use an action.

Similar to macros in programs like Microsoft Word and Microsoft Excel, Photoshop actions are recorded steps that you perform on an image; these steps can be saved and replayed on another image at a later date.
Photoshop actions automate repetitive tasks—they’re easy to create, easy to use, and, best of all, quite often you don’t even have to create them yourself because someone else has done the work already.

So like I said I am an action junkie! I have started amassing quite the little collection of actions - my favorites by far are from a wonderful artist - Sarah Cornish of My Four Hens Photography. She has such divine actions that I seriously couldn't live without. There isn't a photo I take anymore that I don't at the very least run her "Basic Editing" action on it from her "Photoghraphers Tool Box" set.  When I grow up I wanna be just like her! LOL!!

If you'd like to check out Sarah's website, you can find it here. You can also find her on Facebook here or here on Twitter!

So, imagine my surprise today when I found out that she has teamed up with two other fabulous ladies to host a superbly awesome contest. Seriously this is like the motherload to me! I'd give my left arm to win! Heck, I'd throw in my left leg too! LOL!!

Grand prize bundle includes:

$100 Gift Card to My Four Hens

Pretty Presets Collections I, II and III ($45 value)

$100 Gift Card to Paint the Moon

But that’s not all ... check our individual Facebook pages and blogs for special discounts, sales and random giveaways through to Mama's Day!

Sarah has teamed up with Paint the Moon and Pretty Presets for this contest.

You can find them here:

Paint the Moon Boutique
Paint the Moon Facebook Fan Page
Paint the Moon Twitter

My Four Hens Store
My Four Hens Facebook Fan Page
My Four Hens Twitter

Pretty Presets Store
Pretty Presets Facebook Fan Page

So, what you need to do is not on over to these sites right now and check them out! I promise you won't be disappointed! This is a fabulous contest - one that can't be missed!

Good luck! And enjoy the actions! :-)


Melvin the Magnificent Molar

I recently had the opportunity to review the book, "Melvin the Magnificent Molar" written by Julia Cook & Laura Jana, MD.  With Trevor loosing so many teeth these days and Vicky taking quite a notice of her own teeth now, I jumped on this opportunity.
The illustration is absolutely adorable! The kids giggled and smiled at the book while I read it to them. As for the story itself, about a tooth named, Melvin, you take a trip on the road to healthy teeth with a visit to the dentist, learning about brushing and flossing, and even the tooth fairy. "Melvin will speak to your child from a tooth's point of view, explaining all that is involved with maintaining a healthy smile."

The kids loved the book. Every night after supper I tell the kids it's time to go upstairs to brush their "Melvin"! LOL! They laugh every time!

Trevor has an appointment next week with the hygienist and this book couldn't have come at a better time. We'll definitely be reading it again before then, just to help calm him down and prepare him once again for his appointment.

I can honestly say that this book is totally worth it. I would totally recommend it to anyone who has a small child. It's never too early to start getting into good oral health habits.


Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Always in my heart!

My apologies to anyone who reads my blog and is also my Facebook friend, as I am about to talk about my dad again. You see, today my dad would have turned 82 yrs old. But he passed away last May 17th - just a short 13 days after his birthday. My heart still hurts....the pain is still very much raw. My dad was such an incredible man - he helped shape the person I am today. He was extremely smart....very giving....a hard worker....and a man who loved his family more than anything.

I used this poem on a memorial card I made for dad's funeral last year and I want to share it now...

God saw you getting sleepy, A cure was not to be, So God put his arms around you and whispered come with me, With tearful eyes we watched you suffer, and saw you fade away. Although we loved you dearly we couldn't make you stay. A golden heart stop beating. Hard working hands to rest. God broke our hearts to prove to us he only took THE BEST.

Dad, I miss you more than words can even begin to express. So much has happened in the last year since you've been gone - things that I wish I could have shared with you - gotten your advice on - things that would have made you laugh and things that would have made you tear up. The kids miss you so much - they both talk of you often. Victoria still points to your picture and tells us that you died and that she misses you and she tears up. It is because of you that Trevor has become so anti-smoking - he doesn't want to see anyone else suffer like you did - he's encouraging others to quit smoking. You'd be so incredibly proud of him. He's been through a lot this past year dad but he's done so well now. He's made such incredible strides - he's done so well in school - he's learned so much and grown so much. He's funny and charming - much like yourself. And Victoria is just such a spitfire - oh her and her antics - you'd be laughing for sure and I can almost guarantee egging her on! LOL! She's such a lil peanut still but she'd fit right around your pinky. She would most definitely be grampy's little girl! And I'd like to think that you'd be proud of me for standing up for Trevor and doing what is necessary to get him the help he needs and deserves.

I do not know about the afterlife....I do not know about heaven and hell in terms that those who are religious do ...but I'd like to believe dad is in a better place ....watching over all of us and smiling at his wonderful family.

Love you daddy! xoxoxox
You are always in my heart!


Monday, May 3, 2010

No go on the bike!

This weekend we were in Wal-Mart and I decided to take a look at the bikes. We've been talking to Trevor about getting a bike. Well, we found one that was his size and also had the training wheels, so I took it down so Trevor could try it out. It was a no go! Now granted whoever assembled it screwed up the training wheels and made it wicked crooked, even with us holding the bike steady, he still didn't like it. He would pedal a time or two and then freak out and nearly fall off. It made me think of something the OT said about how Trevor has no concept of where he is in "space". And at that very moment, it was so true. It was hard to watch - I wanted to be able to help him learn. But he's not interested. I was willing to buy the bike on the spot - but he said "no". I am a bit disappointed - it's stupid of me but I just want him to be like other kids - and to experience things that I did as a kid. I know ultimately it doesn't matter one bit if he rides a bike or not - it's really his choice and that is what matters. Maybe some day he'll change his mind and decide he wants to learn and if and when that time comes, then we'll go out and get him a bike and give it a try...until then, there will be no pressure.