Sunday, June 2, 2013

9 Months

On May 28th, I was 9 months post gastric bypass surgery. It's hard for me to even wrap my mind around the idea that it's been 9 months. I've come so far since that day in August of 2012. I've learned a lot about myself. It may sound dramatic to some, but I honestly believe that having gastric bypass saved my life. As I was looking at pictures from a year ago this time, I was saddened, ashamed, disgusted with the person I saw. I had become so big and wasn't really "living". I was existing but not "living". It's funny but at the beginning it seemed like making all these changes would be such a daunting task but here I am 9 months later and it's all become second nature for the most part. 

I am at a point now where I eat pretty normal for the most part, the exception being that I eat much smaller portions. I do not feel deprived or left out. 

A typical day for me goes something like this: 

Breakfast: 

Protein Shake (either Chike Iced Coffee Whey Protein or Muscle Milk Chocolate Whey Protein made with 10 oz skim milk)

Snack:

String Cheese or a couple crackers with peanut butter

Lunch: 

Low Carb Pita with deli roasted turkey (2-3oz) with 1 slice provolone cheese, lettuce and tomato. (I buy the small pita's as the regular size ones are way too big.)

Snack:

Wasa Crisp cracker with a Lite Laughing Cow cheese wedge spread on it or a small apple.

Supper: 

3oz of meat (steak, chicken, fish), 1/4 cup of veggies (peas, green beans, squash, zucchini, broccoli, brussel sprouts, etc) and then a couple cucumber spears. 

Snack: 

Sugar-Free Popsicle or 1 cup of air popped plain popcorn

So overall a pretty normal, healthy lifestyle! I take vitamins daily to help with any nutritional deficiencies that one is susceptible to with weight loss surgery. So far, my blood work has all come back outstanding. I think that is because I try my best to eat a good, varied diet. I try to stay away from processed foods as much as possible. I have to watch the amount of carbs and fats in my foods and make wise choices. 

Since it's been 9 months I had Karl take a few pictures of me this morning and I was just blown away when I uploaded them. Honestly, as much as I am gaining this new found confidence, I still look in the mirror and sometimes see that obese woman. My mind plays tricks on me and sometimes I forget that hey I've lost 123lbs. So, seeing these pictures this morning was a total eye opener. 



I would like to loose another 40lbs but the ultimate goal would be 80lbs. Will I ever see that? I don't honestly know! I could loose the 40lbs and be totally happy and content. Right now it's a numbers "game" and just a wait and see. 

I have recently discovered that I love yoga. I began to learn yoga thanks to the Wii Fit and after several weeks found I was becoming stronger and the moves were easier to do and hold. I recently bought a yoga dvd and yoga mat and try to do it every day. I've also invested in a set of kettlebells and work out with those almost daily as well. I have a couple trouble areas - one being my upper arms. I've lost almost 6 inches in my upper arms and they are sagging with extra skin. You can see the definition of where my arm should be if I didn't have that damn flap of skin hanging. I know I will never eliminate totally without having cosmetic surgery but I figure I will do my best to lift the weights and work those upper arms as much as possible and try to at least hopefully lessen the amount of sag. You know I've lost so much in my arms and chest...my boobs are a sorry sight now (lol) but it's a small price to pay for having my health back. 

It's such an amazing feeling to be living once again.